
Do others hold you back or do you hold yourself back? Maybe both. The truth is I don't know. I have struggled with the answer and many times thought i understood the concept in theory and experientially, but i do not. I see and hear many who speak of being positive and that nothing is real and that negativity is not a reality. It sounds really good. However, everyday, I see someone and experience their deep struggle to be happy and be free of the obstacles that keep them tortured. For them it is real.
I allow each day to be a movement forward and strive to be inspiring in most moments. The truth for me on this day is that my happiness seems to coincide with someone else's strife. The bittersweet flavor of continuous change. What happens when you move forward and others in your life do not want you to because it illuminates what they consider to be their weakness? Clearly you need to keep walking forward. How do you let go of that feeling in your stomach that aches deeply as it perceives love as carrying another's weight? You keep walking forward. There is a continuous flow of life that evokes the extraordinary and as you dare to live it many others will become more and more uncomfortable. Uncomfortable creates change.
Change brings deeper forms of love and those that we feel may leave from our expansion of love may in fact come right back to us with more understanding. Give yourself permission to be happy.
the practice: check in with yourself each day to see who you are allowing to stop your growth. allow it into your awareness, let go of blame and guilt, choose understanding, and deepen your self-love by walking forward.